It’s Tough To Restart Life At 38 But It’s Possible

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It surely is. But not impossible. If a dumb-f***ing-bugger like me can, you can, everyone in this world can.

All it needs is a little madness, little fortune, little planning, little determination, little guts and an understanding soulmate.

My 4-year long sabbatical taught me good lessons. it taught me to open my eyes, heart and mind and look at the world in a different way. It made me more kind, more loving, more compassionate and more grateful.

In a nutshell, it made me simpler.

I realized that I don’t need much—in material and spiritual sense—to be truly happy in life. It’s just the little and basic stuff that matters to me.

But I wasn’t like this always.

Life in early 20s was demanding and of an extremely exploring nature. I got a dream job in a dream organization. I was doing good, got a series of promotions, reserved a six figure monthly income and everyone loved me. And this was big in beginning years of the 21st century.

This made me mad.

I think I couldn’t handle too much money at this early days. The amount wasn’t exorbitant was it was too much for young boy like me who came from a humble socio-economical background.

I remember spending most of the money in dance bars, team get-together parties and solo traveling. Money spent in dance bars and team get-together parties were more of satisfying the false ego and pride whereas solo traveling was to satisfy the soul.

The tips given were huge. Every day some thousands of Indian rupees were spent to dancers and waiters. I also remember making rings of rupees 100 currency note and putting it on the fingers of some dancers I liked.

Once, we went in a small group into a dance bar in Mumbai and we spent 100,000 Indian rupees in just 5 minutes just because it was my favorite dancer was dancing on my favorite film song.

Cut to.

I was saving rupee 10 when I was on this sabbatical as there was no income from any sources; other than my little savings. This continued for 4 years till the completion of the sabbatical in 2016.

In 2016, all my savings got depleted and I decided to restart my life commercially. I had acquired many talent and crafts in this period and I wanted to use them to rebuild something new.

My wife—my soulmate—supported me like a strong fortress.

I feel astonished by looking myself now-a-days. It was me who used to spend huge amounts of money as tips then and now, I spend only as per requirement. Neither I miss the old days nor I repent these new ones.

I have understood the worth of money in these 4 years. I have understood how to romance with it rather than just sleeping with for a night.

Restarting my life has been a really good experience for me. I am unlearning old things and learning new things; really enjoying the new life.

Let’s see what does it has in store for me!

Thank you very much!

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