Lessons From Lust

three-flowers

This image from Google search inspired me to write this blog post. It’s really strange—and beautiful—how certain images trigger different emotions is us.

I had been a lustful man all my life. The only aim was to have a sexual intercourse with all the women I met; mostly on the first date.

And guess what? I was even getting good at it.

It was not that bad but many times it brought my inner-self in guilt and embarrassment; but only when I started to introspect. When I was in the mode of ignorance, I was in bliss. But there are lessons to be learnt.

Blessed are the pure in heart; for they shall see God.

The above quote is an old saying. Although, I didn’t see God as such, but my being pure to some, I really felt really good—till date I feel the goodness. And for me this goodness is God. Having said this, I am experiencing a complete rewind in my life-journey. I am going back to my school-college life where these three girls were the only one that I never looked upon with my lusty eyes; or let’s say that these three girls kept me pure all my life.

Till date.

  1. I clearly remember, it was 1988. Hindi film Tezaab was released in theaters across India and the bud of fondness was released in my heart. She was in same school but another class. I adored her; a lot.
  2. In 1994, there was another who I adored. She was a different human altogether but I guess we are different. She was quiet and I was a violent wind of words. That cuteness must have really killed many in school.
  3. After school, I entered college in 1995 and met her. In fact, she was the fist female friend ever. I remember talking to her on phone for hours. She was so dynamic and yet so simple at heart.

I don’t know but I never had any lustful feeling about them. I respected them for what they are and not what I wanted them to be. They till are in touch and we are good friends now but the purity in my heart will always remain.

I also remember another incident from college days. There was a student whom I used to teach Economics. I was good at studies and used to take tuition for pocket money. She secured good marks in the subject and offered me a gift. She was one bad-ass girl all the boys wanted to be with. I politely rejected any gift other than a fee. She insisted that I can ask anything, even her body as a gift. I just asked her to smile and be a good person in life.

She was furious, really but I am happy for what I did.

I really feel that it’s not about lust all the time. In fact, it’s not about lust most of the time but another emotions that keeps us running. And emotional diversity in anyway good for health.

Like in the case of these three women, there was no love as such, but there was a pure fondness; a selfless one-way one. But, all said and done, I really feel great when I think about these three women who gave me a different dimension altogether. It’s because of them I am a useful, sober, balanced and mindful human being.

Although, it was sometime about lust or sometime it wasn’t, lust was a great teacher to me. It has brought out the best and worst in me from time-to-time.

 

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